Sunday, December 20, 2009 ♥
6:09 AM ;
hey! christmas is coming and my relatives too! well.. ill tell ya'll wat im plannin to do this short holiday.
im on a mission to finish my to do list by the end of the holidays >.< (which is on the 2nd)
to do:
1. practice 6 songs in piano
2. finish up my 2 remix soundtrack
3. update my playlist
4. go grocery shopping for CEM xmas party!
5. get away from the city for a while
6. dun get emo anymore.. fuck emo ppl
7. hang out with friends
8. OH YA! i still need to do my piano 'HWs' from dada
these are the pics tt made me laugh or memorable to me tt i found or taken these past few months.
good one! i knew edward cullen is gay!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA patrick joined DBZ
loft.. with our famous ice cream
chilling on the basketball court before competition!
posing for the cam!
chillin again
crapping around with my team mates
yet again.. chillin after a few matches
love this shot =P
MATRIX!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOT!!
shooting again
after the matches.. tired but still can pose
our medals!
group pic!
hard work paid off!!
gonna crapp again! HAHAHAHA
we are the champions my fwends!!
=D
champions plus.. other ppl
ok.. i look damn messed up cuz of the beating we got >.<
b4 performance @ ee idol
singing!
yea... there's only four.. >.<
shy damn it!
feeling the song i guess?
group pic of the contestants
group pic with fwends
me and hui qi again
meng and me
tryin to look serious!
cardus, lynn, me and meng =D
my class! tb21!!! things in my mind...
im always broke no matter wat i do to control spending.. fucked up man..
i had a nice time with lynn the other day and i feel like there's a connection somehow?
i got fucked up by parents a few days ago cuz they still think that goin to loft for studies is a bad idea and has alot of distractions.. then .. now.. im praying hard tt my results are good.. im seriously nervous cuz i think i got careless mistakes everywhere >.<.. pls pray for me!
i dun like it when i get invited as a last resort for events .. fucked up la. tts why i wont go. wut for right? its like... your just asking me so tt i can help someone with something or just to support. i dun do tt to ppl but ppl do tt to me? hmms.. nvm..
aight tts all i gotta say.. cya'll nxt time. ciao!
L♥VE. 6:09 AM ♥
Thursday, December 10, 2009 ♥
10:00 AM ; cat and mouse
you know what.. i dunno wat to do.. seriously.. everyone's telling me to give up.. but.. i dunno. fucking troubled la..
okay.. wat happened today was really fucked up. i dunno la... i just feel fucking down. but nvm.. i guess wat's done is done? cant change the past la.. but really... i feel that im being two timed somehow? well.. i guess its cause life's fucked up. there are few happy moments but it usually doesnt last long. i really really really feel fucked up la... but i cant show tt right? ill just keep quiet like i always do. i think its better to keep it to myself... the feeling is like.. heavy heated with hate and stuff .. like you wanna cry.. but you cant.. you just cant....
i went running tonight even tho all those things happen... just to cool down and think i guess? i actually took time to just... lie down and stare up at the stars... and to my luck... spotted a shooting star agen.. and agen... jaemeng was with me.. charlotte too but.. they didnt see it cuz their too busy throwing rubber stuff at me .... i actually wanna lay down there for a longer time but... they want me to go back to the apartment with them. i love the stars and the night... it makes me calm and seem problem-less? no more stress for tests, homeworks, love? ... SHIT! i sound fucking EMO! i hate fucking EMO! ah.. this is my blog.. fuck care... ill type watever i feel like.
in my mind right now:
1. wat am i gonna do next? i guess its my turn to move?
2. i wanna throw my heart away.
3. should i say somethin? or just keep everythin to myself and wait?
4. i think i need to take it out and talk to someone...
5. the person tt i thought will be there for me always gives negative advices ... wtf
still wondering..
yes i am thinkin.
L♥VE. 10:00 AM ♥
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9:40 AM ;
yea.. maybe she's really not for me
L♥VE. 9:40 AM ♥
