Sunday, November 22, 2009 ♥
9:50 AM ; why?
just came back frm study camp. got hell lot of comments from my dad that i shouldnt be wasting my time there and my mom added that it takes alot out of me cuz we're not really studying so much but playing.. she saiys that everytime i come home, i look beat up.. wut's wrong with a lil fun in studies though? as long as you do well, does it really matter? ... iono.. i might not be goin for nxt sem's study camp if i dun change their mind.
you know.. i dont understand some people... i try my hardest to but somehow, i cant? im still trying my best to keep an open mind like the rest of us and be more .. understanding? hmmms.. but nvm.. im sry.. i just cant get it out of my head. im pretty sure im not the only one hurt but... nvm... forget it. i just realized somethin when im having my alone time.. it popped out of my head suddenly.. and it says.. 'its best to mend it and not to end it' .. i hope itll come true?
i went to orchard after church today... i finally bought my 'philippines' shirt.. then ate at wheelock's sakae sushi. my mom keeps commenting that im stoning -.-........ well. yea.. cuz i just came back from camp and didnt get much sleep? went home and slept till dinner time. went online and talked to meng, charlotte, huiqi and others. atleast their understanding.
why do people keep on asking on 'why am i still single'? well.. maybe i havent found the right one for me yet? or havent really realized that THAT someone is already around me but i didnt discovered her yet? iono.. i thought i found someone but it ends up that its just a mirage. im actually liking something my mind wants to see..
camp was actually quite enjoyable and i learnt ALOT of things during the 3 days. i learnt about my subs and understand them well, plus, i learnt about people too. i dont like the part abt just now in the morning when i woke up thought... i felt heavy hearted and sad =/....... first time it happened at loft. you all know me, im always jumping around and making random comments on stuff even when im stressed up and stuff.. but this thing's really bothering me till now...
the group of friends that i have now is like a family to me. i feel like, i can share any problems with them and i care for them alot too ..... i cant ask for better friends. i hope they somehow feel that way too?
im gonna sleep already cuz i got class at 9. nights
L♥VE. 9:50 AM ♥
Wednesday, November 18, 2009 ♥
8:22 PM ;
im stressed up. i dunno wat to do. suddenly, there's alot of stuff to do in school and people are expecting alot from me. i really respect gary and jonathan cause they can cope with this kind of stress everyday... hmmm.. maybe its my time to learn also.
my list of things to do:
1.study AC and AEL as much as possible cause i dunno anythin abt them AT ALL.
2.organise my band practices for ee idol
3.practice voice for ee idol
4.choreograph for ee idol auditionists
5.save up money asap! cause im damn broke
6.do homework by myself and NOT copy
7.practice maths
8.do comt project
9.do AEL project
10.do business and finance homework
11.practice piano
12.dun fuck up my common test and get ADs
13. schedule everything in my phone so that i know when is when
14.do mol
15.do tutorials
16.arrange a new music playlist
im sry if i cant please everyone ... but ill try my best.
L♥VE. 8:22 PM ♥
Wednesday, November 4, 2009 ♥
7:01 AM ;
i dunno... feelin like ive been side tracked... hais.. hate ruined plans...
L♥VE. 7:01 AM ♥
Thursday, October 29, 2009 ♥
8:47 AM ;
hey! today went to school by taxi cos my dad asked me to go with him =D free ride siol! so.. ytd went to business and finance course... i dun understand wat the lecturer is talkin abt cuz the class is too noisy... so.... me n huiqi took pics instead >.<
tmr's my band gig at smu... i hope itll turn out well cuz... alota ppl are coming to watch? im kinda nervous abt this cuz im not playing with my original bandmates so... yea.... this is the first time i get nervous on stage... im scared we'll cock up cuz of someone or just cus we dont play long enuf together... we even dont haave the feel for each other's playing le... hais... =/... wish us luck pls!
ill upload the vids n stuff tmr if possible!
L♥VE. 8:47 AM ♥
Saturday, October 10, 2009 ♥
4:28 AM ;
hello! wow.. my blog is sooo dusty >.<.. well.. b4 anythin else, i just wanna get this off my chest:
yea.. i guess ur right! im the asshole cause i rejected you a few months ago. but did it ever occur to you how much pain you caused me when you dumped me on my 15th birthday? the fact that atleast tell me live not in some email i recieved frm you. and now, since you got rejected by me, you got the right to say that im the asshole and badmouth me infront of my friends in hk? wow... tts really super low of you. im sorry but i didnt reject you cuz i wanna get revenge or sumthn.. i just did cause there's no point in goin on with you. i've given up long ago. maybe tell me that in 2005 then i MIGHT accept you. but its over. it really is... so pls leave me alone =)
well.. nowadays is quite... erm.. boring ... alot of ppl are MIA... there's gary, tom, and meng. then recently there's sara -.-....
went to sentosa ytd! and yes.. i turned black.. you know why???? i put the stupid sun tanning oil and it says TAN not charcoal! .. but i turned charcoal -.-....... im happy though cause i got to spend time with people* =D you know who you are >.<... it was fun laughing away with you guys! after the outing, went home. as i was walkin in the corridor to my flat, my mom was there and asked me to come with her to the airport -.-......... it was 9 plus and i just came back frm sentosa -.-...... lol... i said 'no' at first but since she said tt she's gonna buy jollibean for me then ... OK! =D... went home around 1 plus... =/... damn tired la...
today i just stayed home playing piano.. nth much hahaha... well tts it for now.. ill upload the pics soon
L♥VE. 4:28 AM ♥
Friday, August 28, 2009 ♥
8:36 AM ;
truths about me again! as of now.
1.i cant finish my damn song.
2.i hope she sees tt i like her since i cant show her myself -.-...
3.ill play basketball the whole day tmr cos im fucking troubled
4.im already playing basketball in my head >.<
5.there's oni 2 things in my mind... her and my stupid song
ok tmr then update after basketball!
L♥VE. 8:36 AM ♥
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 ♥
8:43 AM ;
heys! exams are FINALLY OVER!!! 50 days of holidays WOOOOOT!!!...
the past week, i was stayin at the LOFT with CEM ppl.. and some ee peeps too.. we studied hard together and stuff but also had alota fun at the same time.
im trying to get to know more ppl each day there and now, i believe i got more and more friends =)
oh yeah! we celebrated yuenleng and gary's bday at loft... it was damn fun! gary got an everlast shirt and strawberry flavored condoms for his bday... and yuenleng got shoes =) ...
i think im falling for someone fast but im trying to control everything and stay away =x... not ready for such commitments yet.. later i hurt her =/... ill try to get to know everyone better first b4 i try to do anythin else.
ok ... i seriously have nothin planned on the holidays... i might be goin to hk tho.. my mom still havent decided where she'll send me n my bro yet... i wan philippines but she say got alot of bad stuff tt i might learn there... and there's alot of gay ppl there -.-........
if its hk tho... i might bring a friend along or 2 friends along so tt can have more fun there! i hope my friends in hk are not busy tho....
im composing this song about fairytail love... but half way through the song... my mind blanked out.. and now.. im stuck.. is it maybe cos im not inlove or has no experience relating to the song? hmmmms =/.... mybe the girl i like will help me someday XD....
ill miss jaemeng and gary =( their gonna be off to china for 6 long months on the 1st or 2nd sept... hais... ill be stuck wif shafiq -.-.... lol JKJK!!! >.<... im good wif alot of my friends... just tt.. its not the same without them fer a while..
aight.. tts all fer now... if i go to some other countries, ill be sure to blog abt it.. fer now.. needa sleep and think abt the song -.-..... i hope sumthin good happens during this long break..
L♥VE. 8:43 AM ♥
