milkboy

2011-11-08T18:38:00.001-08:00

if you dont want me to go, just say it. you dont have to ignore me when i ask abt it.

2011-10-25T23:49:00.000-07:00

i hate disappointing people

2011-10-25T10:16:00.000-07:00

i thing everyone can see through me. my emotions can be projected by my body very well.

well... i guess all my guy friends agree on one thing, the girl a guy desires the most is the girl he cant get. why is it like that??? its like everyone can be attracted to you cept for THAT special one.

you guys know what happened when i started liking her? all my 'activities' were stopped. no more girls, less drinking and my mind is being washed by detergent and oral b. im still the most dirty minded in my group i think but its WEIGH lesser than before i met her. im like changing into this guy that i dont even know... wtf... whenever she's around, im the quietest in the group... like a well behaved puppy =.=..... but once she's not there, all the noise comes out from me. arrrggghh... what am i doing?? fuck man.

i think i like her alot but there's this part of me that keeps saying that i need to give up cause there's alot more girls in line for me. but the thing is, i dont want any girl other than her!

ill end here

2011-10-18T07:35:00.000-07:00

I know what im afraid of... rejection

2011-10-17T09:41:00.000-07:00

hey kevin, when was the last time someone did something amazing to you? a girl cared soo much for you? how about someone you love soo much and she loves you back just as much or even more? when was the last time your name's associated with someone all the time?

yes, being single for a long time is fun to a certain extent. your carefree, you dont have to answer to anyone and you can do anything you want. but being in a relationship is fun too. if you find the right partner, you wont even notice that your in a relationship cause your having too much fun together. there are ups and downs but that's part of any relationship you have, to your friends, family and gf.

i think its time you persue that girl you liked for quite a long time now. when are you gonna have the balls to just be romantic again and be with her? its been weigh too long since anyone saw you caring so much for someone. weight too long.

just thinkin

2011-08-28T13:13:00.000-07:00

i always ask myself whenever im interested in someone if she's worth it.. if she's the type that you can let your friends meet and be proud of.. if you can let your family meet and live the next day..

well, now, i think my mindset changed.. now i ask myself if im worth it,, if im the type that can click with her friends and family and a type that she can be proud of...

i wonder what people really think of me. im tryin to change for the better and take this wall off me.

let me explain to you all what is the 'wall' im talking about.. its somethin that keeps me away from people. i tend to get talkative when im in awkward situations. i usually talk about explicit jokes but actually, im really not like that at home. if you know me like my really close friends does, then maybe you'll understand.

im human. i've done things im not proud of, maybe anger or disappoint you and maybe even annoy you. but im no backstabber and liar. ill be loyal to you if your loyal to me and ill respect you if you respect me.

im happy to make you smile, even for a brief moment and i think its time to let go of the emotions and start living happily.

i really enjoy your company, even though your being awkward with me. just hope all the walls will be teared down.

i promised that we'll be better. i meant it

2011-07-29T22:20:00.000-07:00

when you like someone you cant have..

2011-06-03T01:46:00.000-07:00

im inlove with a person that's avoiding me. love aint comin my way at all.. when i finally wanna settle and go all the way, im denied.. why cant it be simple and let's be together =/..

2011-05-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

have you ever felt that your heart suddenly weighs a ton? yea.. that's how im feeling now =/... hope you had fun today... with him =)..

fuck.. i feel like ripping ppl off...

2011-04-01T11:25:00.000-07:00

heys! just starting to blog again... erm.. ill update soon with vlogs too.. hopefully!

2010-06-19T10:53:00.000-07:00

i really wanna sit down and talk to you.. but wat for if ur not gonna be real enuf and dont tell me wat you really feel? so... ill just go ahead and take my stuff and do my things.=)

2010-05-07T09:16:00.000-07:00

if you got an opinion, voice it out! dont fucking drag everyone in one corner and tell them what you think! tts why its called a fucking meeting.. you meet and discuss ALL the problems. dont fucking have ur own small group talk abt wat you think and try to influence the leaders tt ur right! especially when it comes to making critical decisions! the meeting isnt even over, you go drag everyone outside just to let them know ur opinion and prevent us frm defending our fucking hard work.

fucking annoying.. you oni dun wanna get shot down when you give ur 'smart' opinion.. tts why you go drag everyone to one corner and secretly talk to them.. fuck.. ask for meeting then go one corner discuss among urself. knn .. waste my time go if ya'll gonna decide stuff without our opinion... knn restructure the whole rank of ppl by urself without asking for the WHOLE committee opinion.. wat fuck is the committee for if ya'll gonna discuss stuff urslef then expect us to follow?!?! one of these days ill lose my fucking temper and shoot you all down.. KNN

2010-04-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

when i care abt you, you turn to someone else.. when i dun give a fuck, you go to me -.-.... i dunno wat to do. well i guess ill stop caring first... i wont.

2010-03-22T09:10:00.000-07:00

wtf?!?!?! i just got to know tt the mayor of manila lives in the SAME condo as me and the SAME building as me HAHAHAHA .... then got a few other actors and actresses living in the SAME building too! ... HAHAHAHHA COOOOOOOL!!!!!!!!

2010-03-22T05:15:00.000-07:00

Hello.. i dun feel like sharing anythin with anyone anymore.. so.. i dunno.. maybe this is my last post? who knows.. i think only 1 person knows alot abt me now. you know who you are =)

2010-01-30T20:16:00.000-08:00

hi! its been awhile since i've updated.. well.. life's stressful these days... ive got loads of tests, presentations, maths and tutorials to hand up... shiet... but anyways... im happy that even though i got alota things goin on, i still manage to have time for friends and family.

valentine's day's comin and i dunno wat to do XD... well, the girl i intended to ask out is chinese so i think she'd probably be out with family n stuff that day so.. yea.. why are ppl givin up on love arh? love is the one thing that keeps all of us bonded together. it gives us hope, happiness and strength to do everythin.. valentines day is for us to show tt love to tt one person and i think its damn special to do that.. dont you girls know that its damn hard for guys to ask a girl out? its not that we're scared to ask... but we're cautious enough to know that we can get rejected or hurt by you ppl and we dont want that! therefore, we think b4 we act n stuff.. -.-... just for ya'll to reject-.-....HAHAHA... well.. you all know we'll try harder..

erm.. im damn busy nowadays... i got scolded by jonathan cause i still havent given him my presentation slides-.-.... anyways... i gave them to him last night. now doin maths. MATHS!!!! yuck... but surprisingly, the easiest engineering sub.

just now while i was going in the church, my mom and i got stopped by the choir leader guy.. he was tellin my mom that they need a pianist for the church every sunday-.-....and yea.. both of them looked at me... WTF!?!?!??! ... then she herself suggested me to him... then he go pull me aside and ask me personally... told him to send me the songs and the scores for them and ill see abt it... WHAT AM I GETTING MYSELF INTO!?!??!! >.<... shiet!!!! i got loads of work to do and now, i have to play infront of hundreds of ppl every week -.-.... great...

oh yea! i joined canoe sprint in my school. my first training was damn ... arrrgghh!!!... 200-pullups, 400-pushups, 200-chunches and 20 rounds around the track = 8km run...tmr's another training-.-..... im sooo excited -.-....

PLEASE DONT TOUCH ME! especially every TUESDAYS and THURSDAYS!

agendays for the 2 weeks:

1.spam ac and understand it well!

2.practice maths

3.study ael

4.DEP is a must to study cuz i might fail the module if i fail the quiz

5.finish all the online tutorials and maths

6.try to train myself to do 20 pull ups every set

7.stay sane =P

this is me =)
happy cny! my best 'tiger look'!
candid

men at work
cousins
lynn, me and cardus

HAHAHAHAHAHA....ROAR!!!!
xmas Party at cardus'

2010-01-17T22:51:00.000-08:00

je suis ennuyé... mes parents me demandent de devenir Singapourien à cause du fait que je peux être admis dans une école de vol plus rapide... im stil décide mûrit je devrais renoncer ma citoyenneté comme un Philippin ou non

2009-12-20T06:09:00.000-08:00

hey! christmas is coming and my relatives too! well.. ill tell ya'll wat im plannin to do this short holiday.

im on a mission to finish my to do list by the end of the holidays >.< (which is on the 2nd)

to do:

1. practice 6 songs in piano

2. finish up my 2 remix soundtrack

3. update my playlist

4. go grocery shopping for CEM xmas party!

5. get away from the city for a while

6. dun get emo anymore.. fuck emo ppl

7. hang out with friends

8. OH YA! i still need to do my piano 'HWs' from dada

these are the pics tt made me laugh or memorable to me tt i found or taken these past few months.

good one! i knew edward cullen is gay!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA patrick joined DBZ
loft.. with our famous ice cream

chilling on the basketball court before competition!
posing for the cam!
chillin again
crapping around with my team mates
yet again.. chillin after a few matches
love this shot =P
MATRIX!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOT!!
shooting again
after the matches.. tired but still can pose
our medals!
group pic!
hard work paid off!!
gonna crapp again! HAHAHAHA
we are the champions my fwends!!
=D
champions plus.. other ppl
ok.. i look damn messed up cuz of the beating we got >.<
b4 performance @ ee idol
singing!
yea... there's only four.. >.<
shy damn it!
feeling the song i guess?
group pic of the contestants
group pic with fwends
me and hui qi again
meng and me
tryin to look serious!
cardus, lynn, me and meng =D
my class! tb21!!!

things in my mind...

im always broke no matter wat i do to control spending.. fucked up man..

i had a nice time with lynn the other day and i feel like there's a connection somehow?

i got fucked up by parents a few days ago cuz they still think that goin to loft for studies is a bad idea and has alot of distractions.. then .. now.. im praying hard tt my results are good.. im seriously nervous cuz i think i got careless mistakes everywhere >.<.. pls pray for me!

i dun like it when i get invited as a last resort for events .. fucked up la. tts why i wont go. wut for right? its like... your just asking me so tt i can help someone with something or just to support. i dun do tt to ppl but ppl do tt to me? hmms.. nvm..

aight tts all i gotta say.. cya'll nxt time. ciao!

cat and mouse

2009-12-10T10:00:00.000-08:00

you know what.. i dunno wat to do.. seriously.. everyone's telling me to give up.. but.. i dunno. fucking troubled la..

okay.. wat happened today was really fucked up. i dunno la... i just feel fucking down. but nvm.. i guess wat's done is done? cant change the past la.. but really... i feel that im being two timed somehow? well.. i guess its cause life's fucked up. there are few happy moments but it usually doesnt last long. i really really really feel fucked up la... but i cant show tt right? ill just keep quiet like i always do. i think its better to keep it to myself... the feeling is like.. heavy heated with hate and stuff .. like you wanna cry.. but you cant.. you just cant....

i went running tonight even tho all those things happen... just to cool down and think i guess? i actually took time to just... lie down and stare up at the stars... and to my luck... spotted a shooting star agen.. and agen... jaemeng was with me.. charlotte too but.. they didnt see it cuz their too busy throwing rubber stuff at me .... i actually wanna lay down there for a longer time but... they want me to go back to the apartment with them. i love the stars and the night... it makes me calm and seem problem-less? no more stress for tests, homeworks, love? ... SHIT! i sound fucking EMO! i hate fucking EMO! ah.. this is my blog.. fuck care... ill type watever i feel like.

in my mind right now:

1. wat am i gonna do next? i guess its my turn to move?

2. i wanna throw my heart away.

3. should i say somethin? or just keep everythin to myself and wait?

4. i think i need to take it out and talk to someone...

5. the person tt i thought will be there for me always gives negative advices ... wtf

still wondering..

yes i am thinkin.

2009-12-10T09:40:00.001-08:00

yea.. maybe she's really not for me

why?

2009-11-22T09:50:00.000-08:00

just came back frm study camp. got hell lot of comments from my dad that i shouldnt be wasting my time there and my mom added that it takes alot out of me cuz we're not really studying so much but playing.. she saiys that everytime i come home, i look beat up.. wut's wrong with a lil fun in studies though? as long as you do well, does it really matter? ... iono.. i might not be goin for nxt sem's study camp if i dun change their mind.

you know.. i dont understand some people... i try my hardest to but somehow, i cant? im still trying my best to keep an open mind like the rest of us and be more .. understanding? hmmms.. but nvm.. im sry.. i just cant get it out of my head. im pretty sure im not the only one hurt but... nvm... forget it. i just realized somethin when im having my alone time.. it popped out of my head suddenly.. and it says.. 'its best to mend it and not to end it' .. i hope itll come true?

i went to orchard after church today... i finally bought my 'philippines' shirt.. then ate at wheelock's sakae sushi. my mom keeps commenting that im stoning -.-........ well. yea.. cuz i just came back from camp and didnt get much sleep? went home and slept till dinner time. went online and talked to meng, charlotte, huiqi and others. atleast their understanding.

why do people keep on asking on 'why am i still single'? well.. maybe i havent found the right one for me yet? or havent really realized that THAT someone is already around me but i didnt discovered her yet? iono.. i thought i found someone but it ends up that its just a mirage. im actually liking something my mind wants to see..

camp was actually quite enjoyable and i learnt ALOT of things during the 3 days. i learnt about my subs and understand them well, plus, i learnt about people too. i dont like the part abt just now in the morning when i woke up thought... i felt heavy hearted and sad =/....... first time it happened at loft. you all know me, im always jumping around and making random comments on stuff even when im stressed up and stuff.. but this thing's really bothering me till now...

the group of friends that i have now is like a family to me. i feel like, i can share any problems with them and i care for them alot too ..... i cant ask for better friends. i hope they somehow feel that way too?

im gonna sleep already cuz i got class at 9. nights

2009-11-18T20:22:00.000-08:00

im stressed up. i dunno wat to do. suddenly, there's alot of stuff to do in school and people are expecting alot from me. i really respect gary and jonathan cause they can cope with this kind of stress everyday... hmmm.. maybe its my time to learn also.

my list of things to do:

1.study AC and AEL as much as possible cause i dunno anythin abt them AT ALL.

2.organise my band practices for ee idol

3.practice voice for ee idol

4.choreograph for ee idol auditionists

5.save up money asap! cause im damn broke

6.do homework by myself and NOT copy

7.practice maths

8.do comt project

9.do AEL project

10.do business and finance homework

11.practice piano

12.dun fuck up my common test and get ADs

13. schedule everything in my phone so that i know when is when

14.do mol

15.do tutorials

16.arrange a new music playlist

im sry if i cant please everyone ... but ill try my best.

2009-11-04T07:01:00.000-08:00

i dunno... feelin like ive been side tracked... hais.. hate ruined plans...

2009-10-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

hey! today went to school by taxi cos my dad asked me to go with him =D free ride siol! so.. ytd went to business and finance course... i dun understand wat the lecturer is talkin abt cuz the class is too noisy... so.... me n huiqi took pics instead >.<

tmr's my band gig at smu... i hope itll turn out well cuz... alota ppl are coming to watch? im kinda nervous abt this cuz im not playing with my original bandmates so... yea.... this is the first time i get nervous on stage... im scared we'll cock up cuz of someone or just cus we dont play long enuf together... we even dont haave the feel for each other's playing le... hais... =/... wish us luck pls!

ill upload the vids n stuff tmr if possible!

2009-10-10T04:28:00.000-07:00

hello! wow.. my blog is sooo dusty >.<.. well.. b4 anythin else, i just wanna get this off my chest:

yea.. i guess ur right! im the asshole cause i rejected you a few months ago. but did it ever occur to you how much pain you caused me when you dumped me on my 15th birthday? the fact that atleast tell me live not in some email i recieved frm you. and now, since you got rejected by me, you got the right to say that im the asshole and badmouth me infront of my friends in hk? wow... tts really super low of you. im sorry but i didnt reject you cuz i wanna get revenge or sumthn.. i just did cause there's no point in goin on with you. i've given up long ago. maybe tell me that in 2005 then i MIGHT accept you. but its over. it really is... so pls leave me alone =)

well.. nowadays is quite... erm.. boring ... alot of ppl are MIA... there's gary, tom, and meng. then recently there's sara -.-....

went to sentosa ytd! and yes.. i turned black.. you know why???? i put the stupid sun tanning oil and it says TAN not charcoal! .. but i turned charcoal -.-....... im happy though cause i got to spend time with people* =D you know who you are >.<... it was fun laughing away with you guys! after the outing, went home. as i was walkin in the corridor to my flat, my mom was there and asked me to come with her to the airport -.-......... it was 9 plus and i just came back frm sentosa -.-...... lol... i said 'no' at first but since she said tt she's gonna buy jollibean for me then ... OK! =D... went home around 1 plus... =/... damn tired la...

today i just stayed home playing piano.. nth much hahaha... well tts it for now.. ill upload the pics soon

2009-08-28T08:36:00.000-07:00

truths about me again! as of now.

1.i cant finish my damn song.

2.i hope she sees tt i like her since i cant show her myself -.-...

3.ill play basketball the whole day tmr cos im fucking troubled

4.im already playing basketball in my head >.<

5.there's oni 2 things in my mind... her and my stupid song

ok tmr then update after basketball!

2009-08-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

heys! exams are FINALLY OVER!!! 50 days of holidays WOOOOOT!!!...

the past week, i was stayin at the LOFT with CEM ppl.. and some ee peeps too.. we studied hard together and stuff but also had alota fun at the same time.

im trying to get to know more ppl each day there and now, i believe i got more and more friends =)

oh yeah! we celebrated yuenleng and gary's bday at loft... it was damn fun! gary got an everlast shirt and strawberry flavored condoms for his bday... and yuenleng got shoes =) ...

i think im falling for someone fast but im trying to control everything and stay away =x... not ready for such commitments yet.. later i hurt her =/... ill try to get to know everyone better first b4 i try to do anythin else.

ok ... i seriously have nothin planned on the holidays... i might be goin to hk tho.. my mom still havent decided where she'll send me n my bro yet... i wan philippines but she say got alot of bad stuff tt i might learn there... and there's alot of gay ppl there -.-........

if its hk tho... i might bring a friend along or 2 friends along so tt can have more fun there! i hope my friends in hk are not busy tho....

im composing this song about fairytail love... but half way through the song... my mind blanked out.. and now.. im stuck.. is it maybe cos im not inlove or has no experience relating to the song? hmmmms =/.... mybe the girl i like will help me someday XD....

ill miss jaemeng and gary =( their gonna be off to china for 6 long months on the 1st or 2nd sept... hais... ill be stuck wif shafiq -.-.... lol JKJK!!! >.<... im good wif alot of my friends... just tt.. its not the same without them fer a while..

aight.. tts all fer now... if i go to some other countries, ill be sure to blog abt it.. fer now.. needa sleep and think abt the song -.-..... i hope sumthin good happens during this long break..

2009-08-19T00:44:00.001-07:00

today, let me tell ya'll facts abt me .. well.. atleast in my point of view

1. i think i really offended someone tonight.. =/

2.im so afraid to take that big step to stay focused on studies.. i dun really know why..

3. i got troubles with acting normally around girls nowadays -.-..... i tend to act dumb ALOT=/

4.why am i sooo at ease when learning or playing instruments but soo damn fucked up when studying.. or learning something tt is related to school

5.i like someone but dnt have the guts to tell her or even give her a hint >.

6.i really like a girl tt's getting quite close to me now.

7.i always end up hurting ppl tts close to me =(.... im just not really good at expressing myself to others

8.i only write song to someone when i really feel a deep importance of tt person to me

9.twilight rocks.

10.im NOT emo!

11.i play basketball alot when im troubled

12.i love to fly

13.i love tight hugs and soft kisses

14.i love surprises

15.i love movies!!!

16.swimming is a must

ill update more soon. ima sleep now. nights

2009-07-11T03:57:00.000-07:00

this post is dedicated to those who are stressed up these days and are deeply deprived of much needed sleep like me...

well... nowadays im just studying for engmech... i find it hard to concentrate at home cause of the distractions... but... i have to try in order to pass! .. hmms.... nowadaays there's alot of bad things goin on wif alot of my friends... =( so... i also feel sad for them. hope i can help them but... iono.. >.<...

cancelled basketball today cause of rain... 3 weeks of no play is like ..3 weeks without food... =/... hunger and craving for basketball is inevitable...

also cancelled goin for asian beats band competition cause we just realized that the competition is on august- which month is when our exams are also held. so.... yea.... maybe nxt year we'll rock it out........ i've even finished arranging the songs we're gonna play along with all our original compositions... sad that its not gonna work out this year....

dang... some people are goin to china for a 6 week study on the holidays... ill surely miss them... cant balieve they'll be gone that long and i cant spend time joking around with them-.-......

here are some photos to de-stress ya'll out!

i pity the kid... dang... he's suuupppperrrrr horrified! ........

2009-07-02T08:56:00.000-07:00

hi! erm... not really fond of school nowadays... im deprived from sleep and i hate projects.. waaaaa... my eyes feel like got anvils attached to them=(

aight.. there's nth to blog abt tdy... ill try to make it up some other time. chow!

june holidays

2009-06-22T23:40:00.000-07:00

just woke up
stressed up >.<
horny and havin fun!
ngee ann family
BOOOM!

erm... yea... finally went to gym again... still workin on some stuff like abs and chest..... ill try harder on thursday!

nowadays its all abt parties and gatherings. went to sentosa last thursday with CEM ppl... my 'clique' >.<... erm.. we played from 10am-7+++ pm... it was fun!!! but i had a fever afterwards... =(... suddenly had headache then cold sweat...

2 days after sentosa outing, went to regina mae's house party for her bday... ate soooo much there then afterwards, payed basketball... well... it was fun... i was rubbish though... cause i anyhow play >.<... just get the ball and run to the ring kinda stuff... just havin fun la...

the next day, which is sunday, went to church as usual.. then after that went to raffles city mall to celebrate father's day... waaaaa ate too much again there la.... 630, off to park oasis condo for lynn's bday party... at first, it was catching up session on all the BBSS peeps there... we drank n stuff... Gabriel showered us with sparkling juice-.-........... well... i suddenly ended up being the chef there cause Vanessa wanna rest and enjoy the party.. i hope i bbqed everything correctly though>.<.... after that, got alot of incidents tt happened... you can say that the party's gone WILD!.. VERY wild... i feel like.. through that party, i got to know everyone very well... things that i dnt know abt them are revealed n stuff... it was nice to know that im part of this group... same feeling im having when im with the CEM ppl in ngee ann. sense of belonging and ...there's this bond i feel. well... went home abt 2 in the morning? then still talked to ppl on the phone till 4 i think... then sleep -.-...... hahaha....

now, my bro's havin a mini gathering in the house... they're playin wii now.... lol....

oh yea! i finally wrote a poem after all these years! you all know that i only write poems for someone i love right? .. but this poem is like... for no one... so i put it in an envelope and kept it... waiting for the person who deserves it... it took all my brain juice to write! hope it doesn't go to waste.

tts all for now! ill update soon!

2009-06-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

hies! erm... currently havin a 2 week holiday=) common tests are over! well... i dunno if i can get great marks fer some subs tho.... =(

well.. today had to cancel my gym thingy cos had movie date with kimmy! >.<... long time nv go out with her! i had fun talking to her and laughing abt stupid stuff >.<... she gave me a v v v late bday present! erm.. i was gonna give her one oso but i fkcuing forgot it at home =(... then must give her on other day...but nvm! tt means ill see her agen soon! LOL....

up there are some random pics in camp... i aint got nth to put there so... i kinda put random stuff..

tmr gonna stay at home i think=) cos ive been goin out alot lately... then on thursday i still got this outing with v close friends >.<.... goin sentosa!!! i dunno wat to wear!! maybe tuxedo -.-....... erm.... seriously dunno... but got few suggestions... like jaemeng ask me wear the toopid swimsuit with a dick print on it -.-..... she say if i wear tt then she wear bikini -.-.... lol... but i think ima wear surf shorts ... or maybe something like BORAT's swimsuit...HAHAHAHA

ok ill end here! nights everyone! aurevoir

...

2009-06-03T08:11:00.000-07:00

this is my 'serious' look >.<

hello! i've been out of action these few weeks... i dunno... i just dun have the feeling to be as joyful as last time =(... everyday i wake up feeling lots of hatred n stuff .... hais.... the only thing tt keeps me from losing my mind are my friends,family and music...

as you can see.. im trying to lift more weights... but its kinda hard cause im also trying to maintain a 'thin' figure... as in... wen im in a T or a normal shirt, i look thin and helpless >.<...

im goin study camp fer a few days startin friday... im v weak in alot of subjects and i hope my friends in camp would help me.. my ELtech's a mess and my engineering mechanics' just up to par.... i wanna do more, i wanna get high grades. tts why i wanna go to the camp and study my ass off...

i did a bad thing today =(... really guilty abt it... alota bad things are happening to me le.... really really really troubled.

2009-05-03T06:33:00.000-07:00

ola! erm... ive not been bloggin fer a v long time... well, im busy nowadays with school. ive had ups and downs like other ppl but i try not to think of it much.. these past two weeks, im at school FINALLY learnin somethin. im frequently bombarded by ppl asking me fer money but i dnt mind helpin them out. tmr's just another day in school.

you guys know tt i despised being in singapore for a while now. but recently, i kinda loved being here. the ignorance i felt in the past abt this place made me not see wat a beautiful place this country is. i regret not seeig this before and wasted my time cursing tt im not suppose to be here. i realized tt in every situation tt i think is a bad one, i should open my mind and look again. of all the years i stayed here in singapore, this is the first time i experienced the joy of living here. instead of looking down on everyone tt offends me, i became the better man and walk away. i learnt to think hard before i act too. i think im lovin singapore. =)

here are some pics taken from my bday party and some other random events:

i didnt encourage tt!

earl the big kid! with geo and jude

dude! shafiq's white!

dang! the sun bleached fiq too much! or maybe its the moon >.<

emo-ing

camp and school pics!:

too tired to smile BIG BIG

there i go agen! sleeping in class... photo credits to khairul!

aight! nights peeps... got school tmr!

PACQUIAO FLATTENED HATTON!!! THE LONDON BRIDGE FELL DOWN!!!! HAHAHAHA!

i am what i am. other than that, i am not who i am

2009-03-01T06:51:00.000-08:00

lol... im so amused to the stupid idiots that thinks they know better of me. lol... well firstly, let me get this straight. i got 17 pts from the O's. the ppl that dispise me so much cant even reveal themselves to me. their just sooo tough cause its the internet and you can be 'anonymouse' to ppl. well... yea im sure they dont dare do that cause they dont have the balls. i wont even have a thought of taking ya'll seriously cause you dont have the nuts to be worth wasting time with. if ya'll wanna cook up a fight or somethin, just tell me when and where. that's all ya have to do. GROW SOME BALLS! =)

its funny cause ppl always tend to be so 'tough' when they know they cant be hurt. but when their infront of pain or danger, they'll pussy out. the ppl who hate me in 5n1 are one of those ppl. lol... they cant even come face me. well... yea.. just when you got the balls to face me, you know how to contact me. =) ill be happy to reorganise your face/faces... if you STILL cant grow balls, please dont come to my blog and mess it up.. its immature AND it proves your a loser. atleast put your real name hahaha... so yea.. bottom line, grow some balls and face me, or, just piss off =) stay happy! bastard gaybriel is spreading too much news cause he's fuckin gay.. only gay ppl open their mouth too much and tell fictional stories

OK! enuf abt the drama.. lol.. nowadays i cant even blog la... ya'll can see me online but im not actually there most of the time.... =(.... im expecting an unplanned trip soon. unplanned cause i might leave any day.

heys! i got very good news about my basketball! im finally improving after remaining stagnant for a few years! lol... i can jump higher than ever and it proved to be useful when i played against 6-7 footers yesterday! i managed to block one ler! lol 1 only ... while he in the air, i blocked him le! ball-hand-ball kind of block! and that's a clean block ah! =)..... then my shooting also improved. i can shoot comfortably from any positions....ill try to improve more then can challenge better opponents. more gym and boxing also.. to improve fitness=)

ok that's all fer now =( ... i cant put pics now cause i got new phone then still cant get the hang of using its functions=(.... no pics ler! T-T.......... no songs also cause andy went back myanmar so cant have band practice. nvm nvm! lol... next time got already =)

hastalavista!

2009-02-13T06:18:00.000-08:00

heys! today went to jude's house to hang out.. actually plannin to wake up at 9 am but i suddenly felt lazy and woke up at 930-.-...... and im suppose to leave home by 10!! wow... well i managed to arrive on time though... 11 ... we hanged out at his place first then saw these eurasian teenagers sunbathing and swimming... so... erm... we went in as well -.-....... then played guitars at the pool side ... THEN went in agen.... THEN played guitar agen -.-...... we did tt so many times-.-........ dive dive dive!!! played basketball afterwards ... we won our first few games straight then lost the rest STRAIGHT as well -.-....... wow... we sucked cause we're all unfit... NO STAMINA LA!!!!!! went back home at abt 9? then arrived here abt 10 plus... today's activities are quite fun =)

these are the things i did this week...

yup i went facial... got forced there la... it was ok... but i nealy cried when the woman's extracting the stuff T-T..... ok not really cry... just tears nearly came out of my eyes... watery eyes T-T......
as usual... had band practice! this is a rare photo! fransis holding a mic and singing! HAPPILY!!!!
LOOK AT THAT SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!
ate lerma's birthday cake
kenneth and ate lerma
me and ate lerma
kyle(mouth full of cake) and ate lerma
richard and his guitar
jude hiding behind the lyrics... (camera shy)
jude playin
dinks and notes
playin agen
jude has nthn better to do.. he used the paper clip to clip his nipple-.-.....
tryin very hard !
now his lips
finished product
AND THEN... pinched his nips agen
DANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on the train... as usual... listenin to my ipod
some random guy on the train........

2009-02-10T20:45:00.000-08:00

not emo... just sad..

2009-02-04T20:17:00.000-08:00

Look What Youve Done - Jet

i just realized somethin... people shouldnt keep their feelings all bottled up inside them cause sooner or later, there comes a time when it'll burst n you'll really find yourself in an awkward position. sometimes you'll unintentionally hurt people or, sometimes, you'll find yourself too late and regretted that you shouldve said it to the person earlier.. well, i found it out the hard way and im really sad about it.. it really feels as if something inside me is heavy and it hurts. im just really ... sad....

random

2009-02-02T06:51:00.000-08:00

hellos! saturday went to the guild outing! met alot of very friendly ppl there! we played on the beach in sentos=)! if ya'll wan see the photos please go to www.mash-mellowies.blogspot.com

here's some of the songs my band recorded earlier ... thunder and thunder2 is recorded today by the way... and it really sucks... lots off laughing la.... =(

here's the songs n ill tell ya'll sumthin abt each one of them

sleeping with the lights on - EM3K
this song has 3 singers... andy, fransis and me! .... this is the ONLY song that i agreed to sing. -.-........

thunder2 - EM3K
today's lousy song....

thunder - EM3K

hais......

onlyone - EM3K

this one's off timing cause of recording problems but i believe can edit or sumthin.. just dunno how

rain drop - summer-88 - EM3K

i like this song =) original summer 88

andy singing just now... he 'FEELS' it
andy acting shy .... LOL
kenneth and fransis laughing -.-..........
listening to the recording
me waiting for my guild members to come.. then anyhow play wif my phone cam
ching gay grand stand.......... my face look like f***
my red packet money...... >.< this is a version of the common 'SLOW' signs
this is the one i saw in east coast near BK there... -.-..........WTF!?!?!
the guy dunno how to paint or dunno how to write -.-.....................

cny

2009-01-26T00:22:00.000-08:00

alright! happy chinese new year everyone! here blogging cause im bored at home... but ill go to east coast soon cause family friends wants us to go there have picnic wif alot of them -.-........ lol enjoy the pics n music!

My Immortal V2 - EM3K

this is our version of my immortal... its not perfect cause of recording problems but... well... hope ya'll like it =)

Bring Em Out - T.I.

this is my song for this post! love this song

Apart of me - Andy.mp3 -

this is andy's new song but its not done yet... here's a preview=)

see how many floor lol... one of the tallest in singapore-.-.......
jurane singing "my immortal"

slippers
look at this! hahaha me and andy saw this when he came to my house LOL!!!!!!!!! Hm?!?!?!?!?!?!

2009-01-21T18:29:00.000-08:00

aight im back! lol.... well... ytd just played basketball... got 2 dislocated fingers then now swollen lol... but still continued playing lar...

ytd cause of the injuries i only won 3 games in 11 games in a row... but well... atleast i tried

today at 5 (usual basketball time) gonna go to the courts agen. me n my uncle have loads of friends there now =)!!!

this is a video we took long ago... now then upload.... maybe later we'll make a video agen better one.... enjoy the video's soundtrack! for the singaporeans i think you'll recognise it pretty much LOL!

song of the day:

Dangerous - Kardinal Offishall

2009-01-19T19:16:00.000-08:00

hello everyone! long time nv blog seh............ ok ill give ya'll random photos in my phone this time =) enjoy!

PHOTO OF THE MONTH!

   lol acting for the cameras-.-.....
   club
   club

   band practice

   kc buyin his clothes at barbie shop
   checking if he got enuf cash
   gonna buy already!
   paying for it

he's so proud of what he accomplished

tito bernard's birthday

i noticed somethin about kyle and ima share it to ya'll lol.....................

this is kyle and he has a skill

he can sleep so peacefully in the train

actually anywhere ................even when.........
playing wii

2008-12-01T04:21:00.000-08:00

hello! 88 is back! we got together and anyhow played songs la lol... here's one if them =) hope u like it!

andys song undone - EM3K

2008-11-18T21:18:00.000-08:00

hello... had prom night on the 17th... was fun la... had to meet fiq in my house then hanged out there till 4.. then went to kc's house to change clothes. while changing, sorta had a stupid idea to play around la... then took half nude pics -.-........... went to prom on a limo cab thingy with fiq,kc,jovi and you wei... took loads of pics wif different ppl but not with my camera la... lazy hahaha... after prom went to clark quay. then went home abt 2+..... i was out for the whole of ytd =/.......wat i mean by out is.. knocked out by the way. ok tt's all for now.. have to get somethin frm kc's house. cya'll lata. aurevoir!

winston @ clark quay

handsome seh

changing la... then take for fun

LOL

fiq

prettiest one

summer-88 blur

my table

you wei

no matter where all off you are drifted in, your always close to my heart. we're not a perfect family, but we can always be there for each other to overcome anything. in this 4 years i've spent with all of you... thank you.

2008-11-13T23:55:00.000-08:00

hi! after O's im seriously enjoying myself... lots of outings and parties! cant tell ya'll the complete story but ya'll can see frm the pics la... hope my class will have some sort of gathering cause i hope we can bond n stuff... b4 goin off to different schools... well enjoy the pics... me and shafiq having our own mini photo shoot!

solo pic before shower

with shafiq

shafiq

light

tada!

can ony use for emergencies

gym b4 swimming @ kc's condo

kenneth's 'cake'

long ago la

2008-10-25T06:27:00.000-07:00

   you wei and tian yu ;)

   wen2 and mochi @ sakae

   my cards... playing taiti
   yixiao,me and hoiyi

hey! long time nv blog... its cuz of O's... actually all the papers are do-able but .... i just messed up my Amaths paper 2 badly tt i dont have the will to go on... fuck it... so.. yea..

i met this girl a month ago through sms. kinda send my messages wrongly sometimes... so.. yea... we chatted abit n i got to know her... n it turns out tt she's from my school too-.-....... too much of a coincidence... well.. i never met her in person and i dunno how she look like. but her personality's amazing. it kinda makes me break into a song lol... this song acutally

all my life - kci and jojo

O's quite tough on the studying part... but i coped with it and really did my best for all papers cept for Amaths.... shit... well... i hope i wont see myself crying when i get my results... SHIT!!!!

oh yea i just changed my house.

2008-09-04T00:25:00.000-07:00

hello... went to gym yesterday at paragon with aizat,lynn n jayme.. soe han was suppose to come but pon.... well... we decided to train only our chest and arms. we saw this abs machine there and we were so curious until we tried it. i nv go to the gym for so long tt i only did about 75 crunches... jayme did 150 and aizat did about 100. lynn did but i dunno how much he did.

after gym went for a shower then steam bath. we sayed there for quite a while until cannot tahan already. then went to the sauna. lynn put soooo much water in the charcoal thingy until the whole room felt like a blast furnace -.-..... we run out la...... then after a while go in again. we stayed there for less than 10 mins then went to the steam bath again. nice le!

my pics in the changing room with my boxers... lol... im modeling my boxers =) hehehe

lynn phyo wan shit
jayme looking at lynn phyo 'horny-ly'

2008-09-02T02:23:00.000-07:00

hello peeps... im currently too busy to blog and iono... not really feelin that well.. i chose to stay at home today rather that goin to a pool party. hmmm ... first time turned down a party .. its cause of O's which is seriously affecting my social life and make me very miserable at home..

tomorrow im goin to the gym with kc n some other peeps. hope it'll lighten up my week somehow and maybe.. meet some ppl ..

seriously bored. well... ill just leave ya'll with this song i dug up from my dusty music cache.

clap back - ja rule

2008-08-21T01:32:00.000-07:00

you wei
band aid given by a girl called jing yi during national day
lynn being gay

sheik playing basketball
me and lynn being gay -.-.........

this is a video of a basketball match between yu peng and me.. i won 9-2

2008-07-24T03:15:00.003-07:00

my hair dryer
vietnam gym
bus
they wanna behead me T-T
TERRORIST!!!!

dang im very busy these days... iono if i can handle O's.... really damn stressed... dont even make tt much noise in class anymore =(....

2008-07-18T20:44:00.000-07:00

HEART ATTACK IN VIETNAM!!!
5n

its saturday n im bored... lol.. later got party in jurani's house and im not sure if i wanna go..

k cya'll later...

2008-07-11T08:51:00.000-07:00

hello... nowadays stressed up... thinkin of alota things lately and quite sad la... nvm see ya'll nxt time

2008-06-16T10:08:00.000-07:00

ALL RISE!!!!!!!!!!! HERE WE GO!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-15T21:13:00.000-07:00

    i caught a fish!! whose hungry!!!!???
   bus on the way home
   im in the front looking at the chaos behind
    PIMP
   this is seriously a horny book
   mr nagulan gay pose
   muddy!!!!!!!!
   fire lady!! i need a hero!!

let's eat!

GUCCI TUNNEL!

went to vietnam for some 'educational trip'...... missing it already hahaha.... well ima put up somemore photos when i get them aight? chow

2008-06-06T09:55:00.000-07:00

2008-06-02T08:05:00.001-07:00

song:right here waiting rock version

ok this is just a video of me n my cousins foolin around lol.... this song is actually slow... we're actually the first ppl to make this song into rock version =)... i got ALOT of mistakes HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

here's the link also =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBhUxISagoI

2008-06-01T07:01:00.000-07:00

1.By wat age do u wish to marry?
any as long as my financial status is stable
2.Wat do u want the most now?
see someone
3.Who is the person u trust the most?
shafiq,family n her* =)
4.Do u thinkk u have enough confidence?
depends... on studies nope... on sports yep=)
5.If u have a dream to come true, wat will it be?
iono... ill sleep first to find out
6.Do u believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
duh... it always appear after the rain pour
7.Wat is ur goal for this year?
get A's fer O's
8.Do u believe in eternity love?
hmmm... ill get back to you on tt one
9.Have u broke someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
NO!!!!!
10.Wat feeling do u love the most?
the feeling of being loved =)
11. If one day... u realise that the world is going to end, & only u can save the world, wat will u do?
er.... save everyone except fer the homos out there
12.Wat feeling do u hate the most?
when ppl try to act smart and judge others
13.Do u cherish every single frenship of urs?
if its worth it yea
14.Wat do u think is most important in ur life?
my life
15.Hu do u hope to be always there with u?
her*,my,myself, family n friends
16.Who are ur best frens?
aram,fiq,gabra
17.what kinda sport do you like?
basketball,american football and .....soccer?
18. Would you rather have $1billion or BFF?
million then ill buy myself a BFF
19.If a genie grant u 3 wishes, wat will it be?
ask for more wishes
20. What do you think of the person who tagged you?
hilarious and adorable

instructions:Remove one of the qns and add in ur personal qn, make a total of 20 qn. then tagged ppl in ur list, list them out at the end of ur post. Notify them in chatbox, that he/she has been tagged. Whoever do this tagged... will receive blessing from all...

2008-05-31T10:33:00.000-07:00

fiq n his blog

jayme
fiq
kenneth
fam pic.. kenneth missing

web cam whoring take one
take 2
take 3
shafiq nose

shafiq nose

funny la
-.-...........

smile!

wait wait wait!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok had party today to celebrate my dad's bday.... had to wake up early cuz my mom asked me to buy stuff from lucky plaza...

12.45:came home n saw jayme in the house already jammin with my bro. his nose is broken cause of sparring last night. so we played a couple of 'songs' then 1.15:shafiq came. then we practiced and had soun check b4 performance... everythin's ready cept for shafiq's songs... HE DIDNT MEMORISE THE LYRICS LE!!!!!!!!!!

went to my room to practice his songs and fool around... shafiq had a quick tutorial from the soul cool bassist. learnt some stuff myself too.... =)

8.00: performance time.. had fun performing but our settings are all out.. the children played with the instruments earlier when we're not looking le... tts why my bass SOOO LOUD then jayme's guitar became soft -.-....... then somemore shafiq dunno do what with the mic...

well the performance is alright overall la...shafiq did well surprisingly!!!! we recorded it in video and sound =)... ill let you all hear nxt time if i got time. for now im concentrating on my O's, my vietnam trip and my band competition..IM GONNA SING LE!!!!!

after performance ate alot then fooled around with web cam lol...

ok ima sign out here =)

2008-05-30T07:41:00.000-07:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question and add in a personal question to make it 20. Choose 8people 5people to do this quiz and list them out at the end of the quiz.

1. Did you do this in a hurry
no.
2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
ill go to space.
3. What’s your favourite thing to do?
basketball
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
no i dont think so.. money can buy more than that i can buy power THEN can get happiness and contentment
5. If hyou can wish to come true, what would it be?
ill wish for more wishes
6. Can you survive without money?
yes&no.
7. Where in the world would you choose to live, if you had the money to?
malta
8. If you win $1million, what would you do?
ill invest it and get another 100000000000000000000000000000000 million
9. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?
tmr la
10. List out 3 good point of the person who tagged you?
fun to talk with, nice, perfect
11. What makes you happy?
basketball and talking to ppl
12. What type of person do you hate the most?
weird and freaky.
13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
im down the road.. standing
14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
telepathy
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
family and friends
16. What do you do when you’re alone?
think....
17. If you had a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
ill change the boringness and stupidity
18. If you could turn back the clock, which period would you like to return to?
the time when im still very innocent
19. What would you do if some weird foreigner asks you for money?
ill just give him my expensive stare
20. Complete the sentence. “I’d run wild and naked if....”
i was showering and a dog chasing me

2008-05-29T07:08:00.000-07:00

you wei wan join ken engrossed in his game

you wei lonely
soe han kena stung
soe han in agony
the bee tt stung soe han i squished it
you wei not lonely anymore

soe han emo-ing
ah lun,ken,wei hao and my feet
ying lin.. actually chio but hides her beauty somewhere in her
what is shunji sucking?
P.I.M.P

games
ken and jeans-shoes
happy class
you wei
soe han

wen xiang sweeping
sweeping
wut's under soe han's shirt?
he showing his shirt

OHH!!! tts under his shirt!

peace
eh YOU!!!
CIP
1+1 =?
4!!!!

dare drink this?
its tabasco!!!!! shafiq attempting
ok ...
he's in agony
you there! ya you!

ytd was a boring day.... went to school like normal then was late fer abit la... late fer maths... i hate tt sub so much but i got no choice but to take it... i hate the teacher more la...

after school fiq came my house n we made my blog! then he dragged me to causway point.. actually i've never been there since i broke up with... ahem*.... then it was quite ok at first but suddenly every step i made in tt mall got this feeling tt my heart got heavier n heavier... i felt like my heart snapped n broke to pieces on the ground le! cuz you see... all the places i see there, i see me n her again -.-..........shit......just by typing it i feel sad now ... stupid shafiq!!!!!!! i dun wan go there again

today just did normal things in school again... then played soccer barefooted... now got 4 blisters on my feet... 3 on my left and 1 on my right. we did our first of alot of CIP hahaha.... had fun la... got scolded by teachers cuz we all make alota noise.

currently talkin to kellie n talkin on the phone with .. nvm ok i gtg tmr still got rehearsal for saturday performance at my dad's party... 'soul cool coming' le!!!!! best band in st james! shit..

2008-05-26T04:44:00.000-07:00

eating
soe han's birthday bash for my bro

this is how men protect themselves
blow
soe han's muscles
zhenke and his balls

food

cookie mixture
soe han the extra

zhenke the cookie model
zhenke juggling a baloon between his legs

still havin party now... ima go see ya'll lata

2008-05-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

clean & clear commercial

i got lots of muscles lol....
drug addicts
drug addicts take 2

FHM!!!!!!!!
betty boop
ITS A BIRD!!!!
long range
happy boy

ok nowadays not really in the mood fer blogging.. but this i MUST POST! as you can see... we are tryin to get ready for my lil bro's 10th bday party... and... yea... we became VERY creative....

now gonna sleep... tomorrow got party while people doing their O levels .. good luck to those peeps though... their in god's hands...

well gtg...chao!

2008-05-24T09:56:00.000-07:00

our relationship will never ever be the same...

2008-05-22T09:18:00.000-07:00

everyone's introuble today...... fuck school

2008-05-19T06:25:00.000-07:00

my top 3 favourite songs fer this week =)

2008-05-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

bakit ang tao nakakalimutan ang mga magagandang ginawa mo... pero hindi makalimutan ang mga masasamang ginawa mo..... may pagasa pa bang sumaya?

2008-05-15T09:42:00.000-07:00

soehan being gay wit hpink bag n pink stuffed pig
gabriel's constipated look
me posing
cheers
last year intensive studying class

ok today's a VERY long day... had a bad day today la... ill talk abt it when i feel like it.. so.. nvm.. ima sleep now ... aurevior...

2008-05-13T06:06:00.000-07:00

jessie(singapore idol),dave(jessie's bf) and i forgot his name lol.. he's a british singer la taken at geo's party

showering
clean&clear models

peace

deep water

volleyball serving
cassandra n me
group
men
after volleyball

tackling winston

tackling winston
'gay-ing'

erm okay exams are done. saturday went to sentosa n sunday went to sentosa again fer a party... alota people are there including power 98 dj mario... he mixed the cocktail then made me drink-.-....... he's actually my partner in bbqing the food lol... then there's the bands and back up dancers in st.james power station ... had fun there in the party cuz there's alota stories to be told there... oh yea n on my table got jessie they all eatin with me lol.. she laughs so loud n pretty hyper active ...

had to leave the party early cuz me n dad went on a business thingy... lighting a condo in novena... got some problems n was there to help out.

yesterday n today's pretty normal.. its boring n i slept during some lessons... saturday im watchin bands perform in arena with dad n bro.. then dunno go where...

today afterschool went to eat in beautyworld .. actually wanted to play basketball but decided to go with alex,youwei n shuji play lan... shit tt stupid starwars game can make ppl blind! waaaa.. 2 n a half hours playin tt left us havin blur vision when we came out of the shop... it was fun though.... laughed like hell... lost like hell too though... hahaha... atleast had the highest kills =)... but team still lost every match =/.....

ok gtg already.. in a bad mood today. chao

2008-05-09T08:56:00.001-07:00

hello...

just finished a new song with bobo. i sang again le-.-...messin up again..lol

but had fun doin it la... i tried my best to sing n record the song..but still quite noob..

ill try to record again maybe tmr... i dunno.. still figuring out how to sing well n record stuff well..=/

2008-05-09T03:41:00.000-07:00

WASTE MY TIME

intro: G G C C Em D C Em D C

verse:

G____________D______C________________G
the first time i saw you... our eyes locked on to each other

G_______________D_______C___________G
there's somethin about you... that i cant seem to explain

pre chorus:

Em__________D_______C
somethin in this world isnt right...

Em________D_______C
i can feel it whenever you cry....

chorus:

___________G__________G
i dont wanna waste my time

__C_______C_G_____D
i wanna hold you in my arms

__________G________G
i dont wanna see you cry

___C_______________Em____D____G
whatever the problem, ill fight it all off for you..

2nd verse:

let me be with you
and ill promise you..that you'll never be lonely again..
please hear out my issue..
and im telling you..you'll find it sensible too..

chorus 2x

end

2008-05-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

hello... ytd composed a song n recorded it with my bro n his friends... i composed a song in less than 30 mins -.-... hahaha ok this is the song but i dont like the voice la... ill practice singing again then record maybe this week or next.. everythin was quite fine in the recording cept for the voice -.-... still noob in singing and recording la..

today made a new song again.. this time with soehan...maybe recordin today also....ill try not to screw this up -.-... please tell me your views abt the song =) ill post the lyrics soon

2008-05-07T19:26:00.000-07:00

me in hong kong

me in philippines... freakin thin and sunburnt
JUSCO

hong kong international airport

SARS period
our first 'wine'

hello! yesterday had chem and physics paper 1.. its easy la... but i dont think ill pass cuz all of the carelessness... had a football match against 4t4n...... we won 6-4... but i actually didnt do anythin la cause 20-25 mins into the game my stupid knee cracked again... then cannot run or walk properly....so... yea...

ok i have nothin better to do today... cuz dont have any exams today.. tomorrow's gonna be the same.. ill not be in school =). my knee hurts ALOT today... the pain woke me up in the middle of the night.

saturday goin sentosa with 5n2 ppl n maybe kc.... but i dont think i can swim T-T ...

er... just put some random pics again.. mostly from the year 2000-2004 .. when im in hk... still very white... not like now... chaota.....-.-..........

ill end here... adios

2008-05-05T08:08:00.001-07:00

today had AMATHS test stupid teachers gave us the wrong paper... in the scheadule, its suppose to be AMATHS paper 1 first then paper 2 the next day... then they gave paper 2 today... -.-....... luckily i managed to memorize my formulas on time and can do the questions... but after the paper, i checked my answer with my friend(wei jian) and... wtf... i got some answers right but alot of wrong ones ... well.. if he's correct that is....

after that i had F&N... the paper's not bad... but i lost 10+ marks on 'sodium'...
wasnt prepared for tt one... just hope my answer's correct...

after the paper went down to the canteen and hanged with peeps... ended up eating in coronation plaza in bt timah i think ... ate till full... VERY full.... played a few eating games there n chatted about the vietnam trip... we're plannin alota things on those 4 days 3 night tour... we also planned some things for the end of the school year. plannin to rent a coach n go to genting or maybe go penang iono.... but somewhere far la... i just hope i have enuf money lol... went to bt timah to play pool with jayme,huiqi,gabra,vanessa,cassandra,winston and wen xiang.. played there till so late... waaa... i suck at pool... lost so many times never win -.-........ begginer la...

went to westmall after that to accompany winston buy his towel to absorb all his body fluids and travelling bag cause his parents kick him outa the house LOL! no la.. he bought the towel for bathing and bag for the vietnam trip... wen home withvanessa afterwards...

ok we we're just talkin abt the vietnam trip n we decided to do somethin on the plane... we're all gonna do shuffle together on the plane.. see if it got shake or not lol.... then maybe push someone in the land mine feild just to see its power... maybe even play soccer in the land mine feild... -.-...........

decided on room mates... jayme,winston n aizat should be in one room then gabra, me and another 5n guy sleep in anotha one.. cassandra will sleep with some random girl in sec4 .. HAHAHAHAHA pitty... ima bring my speakers along for the party in the hotel .. maybe we'll turn our hotel room into a club... with soehan and zhenke as the bouncers LOL...

tomorrow ima head to lavander immigration to do a passport thingy... then off to the police station to do an ic thingy.... dang... lotsa work to do...
im broke nowadays... =/ have financial difficulties this week ... but i still might be able to go to sentosa on saturday with peeps..

2008-04-29T08:21:00.000-07:00

crowded trophy case

well earned awards during x-country and sports day

CHAMPION!!!!(3rd,wen xiang,1st me,2nd nazirul)
yellow house cheerleading team

=)
love this pic
too bad only won 2nd
3 house captains (ariffin,me and brandon)
3 house captains receiving awards

x country starting line
getting into the 'zone'
concentrating
house captains of all houses =)
me being another extra

as ya'll can see.. i just got my sports day n xcountry pics from the school webby... well.. to tell ya'll the truth.. im very proud of my team as they helped me alot during these events... even though we didnt win anythin as a house, atleast we moved as a team and learnt from one another.. i seriously n sincerely appreciate the fact that the house team listen to me... tts a great fact tt i would rmb cuz i only knew my schoolmates to be rowdy, childish ppl....-.-... atleast now i have a different prospective on tt one.. actually.. i kinda miss the company of my team... their really fun to be with ...

as the house captain though... im still fucking disapointed with myself for not trying hard enough to be a leader. i just stand there and wait for miracles to happen -.-....... really let down my house n team from that one.. as this is my last year, i failed to do my one and only goal.. and tts to make a mark in the school as a good athlete and a leader.... -.-......SHIT! now im going on plan 'B'... which i think wont likely to happen.... plan 'B' is me being one of the top or atleat the better ones in 5n for O's ... this is a long shot but must try!!!

today had my english p1,p2 and chemistry p2 .... english was ok... slightly tough cuz of all the fancy words n stuff... chemistry was a TOUGH one.... i thing the probability of my passin is 3-4 outa 10? hmmm..... i HAVE TO do a good job with physics!!!! which is tomorrow!!! iono wut im doin blogging when im suppose to be studyin for physics and my math paper 1 LOL....

ok i gotta go kick that paper's ass... needa memorize some stuff n HOPEFULLY get a distinction!!

oh yea my phone number changed so please update ur phones on that! its now 81603753

2008-04-26T05:51:00.000-07:00

ok i just spent most of today sleeping, eating and studying for exams... dang... im like soo bored right now so im postin random pics....

2008-04-25T06:28:00.000-07:00

today had normal classes in school as usual... i dunno why i was feelin soo cold in the mornin today... first lesson's geography... we made mdm jianthi angry again -.-... she's always fed up with my class cause we dont bother studying her subject... i actually pity her for tryin SOOO hard to make us study but there's really no way of changin the attitude of my class.. literally.. 2nd lesson's physics.. nothin happened there.. just normal lesson ..yadayadayada... 3rd lesson's maths... its an A MATHS test again.. wohoo-.-... shit i think ill fail this one cuz i totally blanked out... i had time to reflect on my mistakes durin recess while eatin =) ... after that is english lesson.. i slept on atleast 80% of the lesson cuz the teacher just kept on talkin abt useless stuff..

after school went home to change...then met zul n kc in the interchange cuz were goin together to the gym at gombak... after about 30 mins of intensive work out, jayme,lynn and winston came along.. we did some more intensive work out for about 2 n a half hours bf hittin the showers... i cant seem to get MORE chest muscles... shit! ... hai...

after gym, went to sakae sushi with kc... we ate alot ... i love WASABI!!!!! lol...

2008-04-24T08:22:00.000-07:00

GUESS WHAT IT IS

ok was bored so ima keep this short... my knee injury's back... SHIT... its cause i played football yesterday during PE then shunji accidentally takled me.. HIS OWN TEAMMATE LE!!!! LOL... well its alright.. its a game.. but its freakin painful till now... i even had to wake up in the middle of the night cause of the fucking pain inside my knee... somewhere there there's this stupid bone that doesnt wanna heal...

ok just talked with auntie gemma n she told me abt the fun times we had during my visit in the united states n our happy moments elsewhere.. laughed until my stomach cramped..

ok quick intro of the ppl taggin in my board for ya'll

Ashley(US)= PRETTY,annoying,fun to be with girl that always loves to bully me
Lauren(US)= ashley's PRETTY lil sis that's very hyperactive! also loves bullying me -.-.. she's also my one n only partner =)
Shafiq(SG)= lil black dude who has emotional problems! HAHAHA jkjkjk he's one of my best buds here in sg
Zhiting(SG)= very close friend whose always calling me PIG!
Joy(SG)= annoying lil penguin that has a crush on a POLAR BEAR... lol actually joys a nice girl with a huge heart =)
Camille(PH)= one of my classmates in hk... i knew her for 8+++ years n still quite close to her =)
Kenneth(SG)=annoying brother
Eugenia(SG)= a close friend of mine who has a very nice voice but needs to work on tt more!
Reanne(HK)= camille's best friend n my ex classmate too =) known her fer 8+++ years n has a VERY NICE voice.. she's also a VERY talented guitarist =)

ok tts abt it... if ya'll wanna know abt these ppl more, just ask them urselves=) their MOSTLY friendly cept for SHAFIQ.... HE BITES!!! lol jkjk he's good...

well yea tts abt it...next time ill put their photos up.. signing off here! chow!

2008-04-19T05:21:00.000-07:00

ok today was a very normal saturday.. well woke up at abt 12 or 1 i think ... -.-.... jayme,aizat n shafiq came to my house to jam n eat -.-.... mostly to eat la... then did los of WILD things...

2008-04-17T07:04:00.000-07:00

hahaha i found this in my com... dunno hu put it la i think tt time shafiq did it

YAY!!! already recieved my nike amp+ watch =)!!!!!! ok and pics frm the US ... and NO! IM NOT OLD LEANNE!!!!! -.-...............................................................................

ok had cooking exam today... everythin went perfectly fine =)) .... first i was nervous cause i didnt know what to do cause i didnt practice my dishes ... tts the first time i nv practice my dish b4 a cooking exam!!! wow.... n it turned out pretty well!!! i finished exactly on time n my food is sooo damn delish! hehehe i felt bad for someone though... SOMEONE with a YOU and a WEI .... LOL....

now slackin at home.. was gonna attend Kim's pool party but backed out cuz im very sure it'll end pretty late.. in this case... pretty early LOL..... abt 1-2 am?? n besides... i have classes tmr... i dont wanna sleep through out maths lesson like i usually do this past few days and i dont wanna miss my fav subject!!!! PE!!!!!!!! =) =) =)........

i LOVE my WATCH!!!!!! hehehehe

2008-04-12T20:27:00.000-07:00

ok had a bday pt yesterday... started at abt 3. at first its quite boring n DAMN HOT ... but i think it turned up pretty well in the end... they're all wild animals!!!! -.-........ tell ya'll the details on my next post.. no time today cuz quite busy

2008-04-10T06:43:00.000-07:00

dang!! thank you fer all your wonderful greetings =)!! didnt know alota ppl rmb it... hmmm..

to my family,relatives,lauren,camille,zhiting,ashley,jude,mary,shafiq and kenneth.. THANKS FER YER WARM GREETINGS!!!

tag replies:
lauren: ima do sumthn like baby sitting too.. iono when but i have to do it sooner or later...
ashley:nah there's nothin new.. its still same old same old.. how'd ya been grandma?
reanne: lol i heard tt you gotta great voice.. wanna join my band?? lol.. im great! ive been into troubles here n there but everythin's fine=)
mardiah:yeah thanks fer not forgettin!!
shafiq: just be there on saturday... its gona be a GREAT PARTY!!!

ok as stated to my message to shafiq, there's gonna be a party on saturday 12th april in my house at abt 3 pm... n ill assure you tt it'll end pretty late...

fer the ppl who wanna come,your more than welcome as i invite EVERYONE!! =) pls contact me if you need more info abt this gathering n pls DO NOT participate in the bash... !! !!! !!!! !!!!!

today is like anyother day... but in the morning got caned -.-........ well it really doesnt hurt.. ppl say it hurts like hell.. others say it makes their ass itchy(aravin)..... well...for me it didnt hurt though... hmmm.. the rest of the day's pretty normal...

went home, used the computer n played guitar abit then fell asleep on my bed -.-.... i was havin a VERY NICE dream when my bro suddenly woke me up n told me that there's someone at the door waitin fer me... i was curious enuf to step out of my room then just as i stepped out of the room, i saw 2 dark figures then BAM!!!! there's white bubbly stuff all over my head -.-.......

lilin n yunchee threw soapish thingy on my head... dang!!! i should've seen tt comin...they also gave me a bash 18x5 times then they hanged in my house until 7 plus.

im now officially dead as i dunno my recipe fer my upcoming FNN cooking test... i didnt do my timeplan yet cuz i dun have the damn recipe!!!! hai... somemore i owe my english teacher a comprehension that's been due over a decade ago... AND top that with a MAJOR E-MATH test all in the same day wich is TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRGGHHH...

ok as you can see.. im caring fer my studies now... not like last week or yesterday or the years b4 tt which i dun even bother opening my book... big change eh =))???? i must act my age now so that everyone can respect me more! lol...

i hope ya'll are gonna have fun on saturday though... and once again thank you for remembering......

2008-04-08T00:28:00.000-07:00

dang today im pretty beat up.. im tired to the bones ppl!! -.-........ well... atleaast sumthn good's gonna happen tmr... i HOPE so...... just puttin up som random pics of myself lol...

well ima sign off fer now... have to do an english late hw n foodnnutrition stuff... who has a printer??? pls save me !!!!!!

2008-03-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

hi! im here to talk abt my weekend.

yesterday, woke up early to train with the COE house members for sports day... went there at abt 8 then found out that stupid ppl frm primary school booked it... im sooo pissed and discouraged but cant show the team cause they might be discouraged as well.. we can use the track for another hour or so ....... so in the end, we waited fer tt hour to pass....suhailah, wenxin and another unknown girl decided to leave already..

well, after an hour, we ran and practiced the relay races... i really hope that we can win the championship this year... there's a tough competition against 3 houses, lewis,coe and moses...

as house captain of COE house, im tryin to be responsible enuf to train my runners n encourage them. but i myself isnt sure if i can win anythin for this sports day..

today went to church very early. then went to meet germain, her friend, yun chee and lilin then went to the bbss concert..

ok the concert was NICE!!! eh there's a GIRL nv tell me tt she has a SOLO in the concert ... tts why cant buy flowers fer her... hai... ok i sat with gabriel and lilin in the concert... lilin and yunchee kept making fun of me le!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhh!!!...

after the concert went to fish n co with soe han,yunchee n lilin.... waaa.... everythin freakin expensive... one stupid dish is 16 bucks(US$24)!!!!! tt's without drinks somemore... wtf!!!!???? anyway no choice... we ate,chat, laughed, etc.......... went home at abt 9 plus... wa... freakin tired....

i would like to thank everyone who attended the training... i really felt tt i've wasted so much of ur time. im sorry. i hope our training is fruitfull enuf to make us win.

ok ima sleep now... photos will be uploaded some other time!

2008-03-25T06:53:00.000-07:00

dang just found these photos with lynn just now when we we're hangin in my house... love wei jian's smile ... PRICELESS....

2008-03-20T05:37:00.000-07:00

being an extra in the photo
Mr Ravi et moi
moi classmates

Shafiq et moi
MY CLASS!!!
im half monkey

5n top 50!!! soe han extra-.-......

Laughing at Jovi's red face
Gabriel the birthday boy

ok my month's pretty crazy... yesterday, went to the sports day heats event.. i ran the 100 n 200 meters event... at first i wasnt that confident with my running abilities cause my leg isnt tt fully recovered yet...... hais...... well it turned up pretty well.. i was first in every event i've joined =)... HAPPY!!!! i wont go on detail wif any of my other days cause its confidential so ima sign off here

2008-01-26T02:55:00.000-08:00

hi! wow... i didnt update this blog for weeks! hahaha... well.. alota things happened these past few weeks..

my relatives came to singapore for a visit n stayed here for about a month ... i was damn happy to have them around and show them life here in singapore... which is mostly sweating your butt off.... -.-....... we went to every possible places we can go to n at night, my cousins n i spent the time hangin out n laughing like hell while we're tryin to put ourselves to sleep ... well... we usually end up sleepin at abt 2 or 3 in the morning cause thats the only time we're too tired to laugh... but seriously... it made me cry n had tummy aches the whole night hahahaha... i even laugh thinkin abt it -.-........ i miss my relatives :/.......

i made a new song with soe han...it goes by the title 'when stars collide' ... I know it sounds like a freakin movie!!! but when ya listen to it... its very nice =)...

this past few weeks i've been eatin my but off in seoul garden n other buffet restaurants hehehe... which reminds me! there's gonna be a 5n1 cum 5n2 class party at lynn's house...its suppose to be a birthday party fer all feb born peeps too! ... its a bbq/pool/kids party hehehe ...

i feel sorry for one of my classmates ... she's like... the wierdest person in class n she's not even ashamed of it... she's like tryin to turn the class into a mini japan damn it! well... i just found out how alot of people really dislike her n askin my to keep on scolding her then they'll back me up -.-... as if that's ever gonna happen... maybe if she mess or disturb me then MAYBE ill scold her badly...

ok... this is the main news for this month! i actually broke my leg playin football... this is the first time i broke sumthin in my body...lol...well... the story is quite histerical... i was layin football in PE... then i was cornered by 2 of the opposing team's players.. i was juggling the ball between my legs when sum1's leg hit me on the right side of my knee... it gave a loud cracking sound but i felt no pain so i kept playin on even though i cant walk properly already.. cant even bend my knee.. i only found out that i broke somethinthe next day when i woke up... all the pain in hell was felt lol... i went to the doctor 5 days later n he said that i had a ligament fracture.. i have to take lots of painkillers to take the pain away...

ok iono why lauren keeps on sayin that im a lucky ass... -.-..... n i just found out ashley didnt send me anythin hmph! lol its ok..i know you didnt know abt it hahaha ..

ok ... relatives are comin here again soon... well.. its next week hahaha... excited again =)

i would like to thank those who cared fer me during this painful times.. the knee n stuff hahaha ... espacially pzt,denise, the guys of 5n1 and 5n2 except for aizat who wanna break my leg more! -.-... to ahem,ahe, n ahem *** and to my mom.. who take care of me all the time =)

2007-12-14T05:45:00.000-08:00

hey.... damn...... im soo afraid of the N level results....... iono if im gonna pass ........ actually im sure ill fail n get kicked outa school ....hai........ damn im scared!!!!!!

ok here is the new lyrics fer my song which you can watch there in the video side of my page!

Intro:G Em C DFirst verse:

G_____________Em

Layin down under… a starless sky

C___________________D

Wishin that I would never… have to say goodbye

G__________________Em

Hopin that I’d see you again today…

C__________________D

Please listen to what I have to say….

Chorus:

C______________G

Maybe im a jerk… n a lil bit strange..

Em_____________________D

Hopin that you’d give me… some time to change

C________________G

I know it aint easy… but ill still give it a try…

Em________________D

I want to be with you… oh no pls don’t cry...

______G ______Em_______C_______D

Yeah yeah Yeah yeah Yeah yeah Yeah yeah

Verse 2

G_________________Em

I know that you know… that I want you so…

C_________________D

Cant we just try all over again?

C__________________D

Without you im growing insane…

Em__________D

Cant you feel my pain

(Chorus)

Bridge:

G______________C

Tryin to let go of the past

D__________________Em

Atleast lets try to somehow..last…

G__________________C

I think we broke up too fast

D______________________C

And now im tryin to win you back

(Chorus)

END

I MISS THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-27T23:45:00.000-08:00

matthew the pizza boy in south point hotel
abbey's cute smile

view of the sunset from the desert!

ok... worked today..after work talked to leanne AKA donkey abt stuff when suddenly, kenneth n iggy AKA turkey thought of a song for her... it goes somethin like this...

They see me rollin,They hatinPatrolling ,they tryin to catch the DONKEY dirty,Tryin to catch me BLACK N bla bla bla...

im thinkin of buyin anotha PSP... its 200 bucks here... it comes with a starwars game i think.. ipod shuffle only costs 80 bucks here-.-...... i wonder how much it cost in sg....

im leavin california on the 5th of december n im arriving in sg on the 7th of december at 12:05 pm ...

dang....im carrying loads of things for alota ppl ... -.- fiq dnt worry.... there's sumthin fer you here hehehe.. if you want ill give you an ipod shuffle with your name on it... ill even put in ur address n mom's name if you want! hehehe..... well.... fer my band, i got sumthin for ya'll... for my cousins,er.... still gonna buy. for others i dunno yet hehehe ;)....

caught in the act.... drinkin iced moccha while workin
did it again! while rolling up the dough
matthew got pinched by the lobster!!!
im smarter n tried to use a fork to eat the damn thing!HOHOHO

i miss eating kimchi with zhiting,playin basketball with eugenia, playing bass n calling shafiq nigga!!!!!!! T-T.....

i love hanah,leanne ashley n lauren!!!!

goodnight!

2007-11-26T14:25:00.000-08:00

superman!
LOL
random pic in in my hotel in vegas
ii dont get it
desert

Intro:
G Em C D

First verse:

G_____________Em
Layin down under… a starless sky

C___________________D
Wishin that I would never… have to say goodbye

G__________________Em
Hopin that I’d see you again today…

C__________________D
Please listen to what I have to say….

Chorus:

C______________G
Maybe im a jerk… n a lil bit strange..

Em_____________________D
Hopin that you’d give me… some time to change

C________________G
I know it aint easy… but ill still give it a try…

Em________________D
I want to be with you… oh no pls don’t cry...

______G ______Em_______C_______D
Yeah yeah Yeah yeah Yeah yeah Yeah yeah

Verse 2

G_________________Em
I know that you know… that I want you so…

C_________________D
Cant we just try all over again?

C__________________D
Without you im growing insane…
Em__________D
Cant you feel my pain

(Chorus)

Bridge:

G______________C
Tryin to let go of the past

D__________________Em
Atleast lets try to somehow..last…

(Chorus)

END

hi!this is for fiq! do this song for me n send me the music asap! put it on our band blog also.. its 8 beat n you can do watever changes is needed ... think of a title as well! thx!

ok im crazy right now hehehe... we just got our first payroll... we worked in my aunt's bagel shop for 3 days for 4/5 hours a day... n we earned 100 bucks! yay! hehe

now workin on my second song here in the US! hope you all will like all of our songs... ok ill log off now! CYA! in 9 days!

to zhiting,fiq,sotong n andy... PREPARE MY CHRISMAS PRESENTS!!!!

2007-11-24T20:49:00.000-08:00

ok... just came back from vegas... we stayed at south point hotel. when we got there, we played bowling -.-... lol... i know what ya'll are thinkin.. i went to vegas just to play bowling -.- .... then watched beowulf.. the show's ok but its quite stupid if you can see the script flaws.. we toured the city and took pics off famouse buildings n hotels! then bought a shirt.. i dunno what else to type T-T ....... i miss them soo much!hanah,leanne,ashley n lauren... hai...................

vegas toilet hehehe

forehead
i made that icecream!
cake fight again!!

vegas!
caesars palace

under a rocket

us
us again
us dancin
candid

Y of YMCA

oh ya!!! i just finished a new song! er... pls view it in youtube or hear it in our band site!

2007-11-14T18:18:00.000-08:00

hi! today didnt do much... just went to joselle's award ceremony in the morning then went bowling afterwards... ITS DAMN FUN! after that went home to rest a while then leanne came to hang with us at home... shortly after came hanah... we played football n board as usual n hang in the room again! now watchin myth busters... they're outting a guy in the shark ifested water n keep on teasing the sharks -.-..... ok i beleive i gtg... update this blog later! chao!!

charming.....

yea!!!!
nice ass eh hahahaha
navy base cafeteria!
fucking big cadbury chocolate!
lean n me

2007-11-13T19:12:00.000-08:00

yesterday we celebrated kenneth's 16th birthday... we did the usual party stuff including the CAKE FIGHT!!!!! hehehehe.. today played american football with leanne n hanah then practiced tricks with the skateboard!... er.. tts all i did i guess... tomorrow's anotha day! n tomorrow, ill cut my hair T-T ... planin to cut it thinner only... cause i seriously look like a mushroom when ma hair's long n thick! hahahaha

cake face again T-T

le tres cake face
loser!

USS MERCY... one of only 2 hospital ships in the world
battleship
joseph

crystal cathedral! TADA!

ice skating
relatives

UNITED STATES FLAG w/ ALL 50 STATE FLAGS

sorry fer not bloggin this couple of days..... went to SAN DIEGO to visit my relatives n have a tour in the naval base there.. spent the weekend there.

2007-11-07T21:02:00.000-08:00

guess who!!!!

my plane!

meet mike! he's a bachelor in his 20's tt's a pilot! he drives 3 different aircrafts n loves to fly!

heys! i actually flew a plane today... this is the first big step that i did to acheive my main objective in life! hahahaha the take-off n landing is done by my instructor,mike but all the things we did in the air is purely my doing hahahaha! we rode a 2 seater 'diamond head' single-engined plane.. damn... i love flying!!!hahahaha

k tts all folks... update tis boggy later